Beautiful Destination is Now

There are so many things we learn as we remember who we are.  That contradicts the program that we have been given. I was meditating on this beautiful image of electrical pulses going through the human brain.  How magnificent and magical it all is. 

I am honestly astonished at the ego we all have. In thinking that though we cannot even come close to recreating the intricate details of the brain itself, much less the mind within this mastery work of art, that we still assume to know everything at this moment.  Or everything about anything.  I am astonished that we do not sit with that for a moment.  Sit in the truth that we cannot possibly know much at all and instead of being fearful we learn to be amazed again. Learn to be in total wonder of it all.  The magnitude that is an 8 lb. organ. No two are the same even if wired exactly the same and yet all connected.  Wavelengths and frequencies that our energy puts out there to call to us like sonars.  Everything that is ours or everything like us and often everything not like us at all.  

Yet we still sit in rooms and listen to people who cannot decide if they want a hamburger or a steak tell us if we should forgive and what forgiveness even looks like.  I am not diminishing that at all. WE- myself included.  Do this all day long.

But in reality it is not the information you crave.  Information is at the touch of a button.  It is connection and validation.  AM I ok if I am not ok with being abused?  AM I a good person if I say I don't like that experience?  If I hold my hand up and say STOP does that make me negative or bad?  Is that judgment, God forbid I be judgmental, people have wrongly judged me and it hurts. I do not want to injure others.  Frozen in time in attempting to make the perfect choice. When there is no perfect choice.  

I can close my eyes and allow myself to be that white light pulsing through brain waves trying to find the “correct” path to take.  Like going back in time and seeing every road block I created.  Simultaneously being another pulse creating an imaginary outcome that was beautiful and perfect.  The perfect husband, marriage, kids, home, the perfect dance and the perfect outcome to everything I could fathom.  These two pulses calling out to each other to find the moment where choice became the desired outcome.  And choice getting so stuck along the way.  

Now, what has changed in how my brain functions? How is it that I am roaming in areas of thought I never would have before? Where the outcome was not near as important as the moment.  Maybe I found it holding my fathers hand when he was passing.  Maybe I found it in getting on a plane without knowing what I was doing.  Maybe it was leap after leap that started in the tiniest moment I cannot remember.  All I know is that right now.  The outcome is not my primary focus.  Do I still have amazing dreams of my future and desires of what could be?  YES!  I might have a dream to fall in love and be so close to another being that dancing naked in the kitchen without a care in the world would be heaven.  Just beautiful seen energies loving the space we share.  ABSOLUTELY!  But I am no longer trying to set that up on a mountain top and making that my only focus in life.  I am stopping to enjoy the journey and the detours.  I am embracing the quiet moments standing in the water.  And looking at every bug on a leaf.  I am seeing the colors in life more vibrant and hearing the sounds of freedom in the voices of others as they wake up too. 

We are not here for the end result or the ultimate goal.  And since we can never know everything.  Or never really finish growing then allow all of time to be this moment.  This moment when you stop and say I am alive right now.  I am all I want right now. Smell the air and take in the colors.  If you are with someone sharing any space for any reason be grateful for that space and see everything THIS moment has for you.  And when or if you are ready to leave that space, then you leave it with gratitude and honor because the moment was everything for that moment.  

We cling to the outcome so much that we convince our minds it is the goal, or the goal to avoid, and we focus so much on that singular moment or state of being that we forget it is the journey.  

If I reached that moment and transitioned from my body at that point.  Would my life be THAT moment?  No!  It would be all the moments.  If I was thrown down a flight of stairs does my life exist in perpetual fall?  No, there is a beginning moment and end moment and the rest after it.  So why would I live for 10 years as though I am still falling down the stairs?  

This moment, is all you have and living it to the absolute highest that it can be is all we have in this moment.  That does not mean chase highs and experiences.  It means to allow this moment as it is to BE the experience.  Even standing alone at a bus stop is an experience.  BE IN IT!  

This takes a commitment to yourself more than anything else. A commitment not to fear stairs because you fell down them. A commitment to still take the stairs if you are afraid. It takes being willing to take the leaps you fear the most even if no one else does and trusting that. Not trusting that things will not hurt or get messy but trusting that it was all for you in every way. My life no longer revolves around dopamine or lack thereof. Every situation or meeting is a gift. Every interaction is a blessing one way or another. It requires you to be more loyal and loving to YOU than you are anything else or anyone else and acting on it.

This is not a "whatever feels good" thing. Chemicals might feel good and kill you. Sleeping with whomever you want might feel good and end up destroying everything. It is what IS good for me in this MOMENT. What is the option that feels most true to me?

Because as we wake up new places within us and find new amazing routes to pulse through there are so many things we could not imagine along the way if we limited them by a passing through to get where I am going.

Release myself of judgment while I accept today's journey.

I release myself from fear of the outcomes. 

I release myself from the conflict of what has been before to what is happening now.  Because NOW I am seeing the road itself as the entire destination.